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Saturday, October 23, 2010

Since I Last Posted

Well, what can I say. I'm getting old. So, I decided it was time, to get my Disability, too many days, out sick from jobs, never feeling good, and alas, I made the decision to move to New Mexico. The wife and I needed time apart anyway, to many quarrels. My parents needed help, they are in their upper 70's now, and Dad has cataracts he can't drive, Mom has a pacemaker, so I decided to move out here with them, and help care for them, while trying to get help myself.
The weather is great here, the skies are beautiful, and it is all more conducive to better health and living. I hate Texas. It's hot, humid, too many bugs, and there surely is not much scenery. I will say the green rolling hills and pastures in East Texas are pretty at times, but nothing compares to the beauty of the desert and mountains in the Southwest.
I just got through cooking my parents and I breakfast, at 2:30pm in the afternoon. Old people have weird habits, and if you live with them, you take on theirs. We stay up until perhaps 2-4 am every day, sleep until 12:00 or 2:00pm, then get up.
Well to make a long story short, I'm here for the long haul until I get word on the SS Decision. I pray and hope it goes through, as I would really like to move to Eureka Springs, Arkansas, the only place that I consider in the Central USA to be close in environment, people, the arts, etc, like Aspen, Colorado.
Aspen was probably my most favorite place to live along with Glenwood Springs, Colorado. I would stay in the Southwest but the distance is too great for me to see my wife and kids back in Texas. The trip from Arkansas would only be about 6-8 hours compared to an 16 - 18 hour trip home to see them from Albuquerque. I have made up my mind, going back to Texas is the last place I want to have to live. I hate Texas!
Yes, I lived there from 1991, until presently, and I can still say, I hate Texas, it took my first wife from me, we would have been married 27 years. It took my life from me, the job prospects there sucked, so I ended up no longer working private investigations or security management, after near 20 years of it. Of course, it was on and off once I did move to Texas. Texas is one of the States, that everything you do, depends on who you know. You can't find work without networking, no matter your experience, education or whatever. You have to play the game called suck up, butt kiss or whatever you want to call it, to survive there. I just never have been one for that game. Though, I have friends there, I know it may not sound like it, but I do. My best friend still lives there in Texas, and we talk by phone now and then. My other best friend moved to Arkansas, and wouldn't be too far away if I relocated there. He is off to College, getting his degree as a lawyer.
Life here is slow, I eat, sleep, write, and eat and sleep again. The rest has been good for me, no stress, and my creative juices, have been stirred again. The Southwest always inspired me, whether I was doing painting or photography. Since writing is one of my favorite things to do, I have managed to write a Christian fictional short story, that I now sell online. I am presently working on a novel, which is more tedious and painful. I have carpal tunnel syndrome and at night wake up with my entire arm from my wrist to my neck in pain. I have to write, so I take Mobic the doctor gave me to relieve the inflammation some, but it's one of the those drugs, that tears your digestive system up. I have Crohn's disease and diverticulitis, so the pills don't contribute to my well being, but at least the bathroom is only a few steps away. Writing is my therapy. I also suffer with PTSD and I have found if I write it somehow alleviates the problem some. I feel less stressed, less panicky, less depression, etc. So it helps, and I am going to do anything I can to help myself with that problem, because it is hard to live with at times. New medication has helped tremendously as well, though it can make you drowsy and tired, and one other side effect, it messes your stomach up as well.
Well enough of details on my health problems. Since I last posted, which has been sometime, I am here in the Southwest, and looking forward to completing my novel, and praying that this one, will sell, sell, sell. New York Bestsellers here I come!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

The Unforgiving Debtor

I often wonder why Christians are so unforgiving, often they are more unforgiving then others, of others sins against them. It seems that it must be that somehow they still have the idea, that they somehow stand before God on their own righteousness.
In the book of Matthew, we read of a story that Jesus uses to illustrate, not just how He is, but how our heavenly Father is, and how much more if we have the Spirit of Christ in us, we should be.
It is a story that you don't often here in today's "feel good about yourself" sermons or the hell fire and damnation sermons of judgmental preachers of doom.

I would like to repeat that story exactly here as Jesus tells it as written by Matthew, who understood this most of all. See Matthew was a tax collector, one of the most hated by the people of his time, as often they are in our time.
The point is not about money though, the point Jesus is making here is about our Father's relationship to us, and how much more our relationship should be with others. My quote is from the NIV Bible.
Matthew 18:20-35
21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"

22Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

23"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand talents was brought to him. 25Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.

26"The servant fell on his knees before him. 'Be patient with me,' he begged, 'and I will pay back everything.' 27The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.

28"But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii. He grabbed him and began to choke him. 'Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.

29"His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, 'Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'

30"But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.

32"Then the master called the servant in. 'You wicked servant,' he said, 'I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' 34In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

35"This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart."

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We see here Peter trying to be gracious, when he ask Jesus should I forgive SEVEN times? See for the Rabbi's taught that you only had to forgive someone only three times, and then that was it- your out.
Not so much different then the Noahdic laws we have adopted for society, most States have adopted this as the - "three times and your out law". This is defined as that once a person has committed a criminal act and been found guilty of one should they commit an act, any act a third time, they get life imprisonment.
This recently happened to a man who stole a candy bar, it was his 3rd time for a crime, and now he is serving a life sentence for that. Just? Justice?
Christians have adopted this thinking, just like the rest of the world. We seek to punish, to extract vengeance, to see that someone pays for their life of crime or harm they have done us.
Yet, here Jesus has just got through teaching on "whatsoever we bind on earth shall be bound in heaven and whatsoever we loose shall be loosed in heaven". Here we think this gives us the power to bind and loose others, which in essence is what our Savoir is saying, but in a much more meaningful way then we consider.
So now he extrapolates even further his teaching with Peter's question.
Peter thought he was being gracious, using the complete number of "seven" times, but watch what Jesus does with his graciousness, which is limited, like our own at most times in this life in our dealings with others and even our laws of our land.
The body of Christ, His bride, His "church" is to be separate from the world's thinking, separate from the world's ways of doing things. This is why even Paul in his teaching in the book of Corinthians, corrects the Christians who would sue one another for not bringing it before the body of Christ instead of the world. How often are Christians doing that these days, in direct contradiction to a clear directive from Paul. Where did Paul get such a teaching from? Did Paul just make it up as he went along. Did Paul develop some new church doctrine? I tell you, no, he did not.
We will see that he got it from Jesus teaching. For Paul who once sought to kill and murder and destroy, what he considered "the chosen nation of God's" enemy, Christians, his heart had been changed by an encounter with the "real Jesus Christ", not the fictional one of tradition and mens teachings as we have so much of today.
Does Jesus apply this to the whole of governments of the world? Most often not. This teaching will never be understood by the world or it's governments. It's very simple to know the reason why, because we know, no matter what government, it is not God's government, it is not His Kingdom. This is not to say he doesn't allow men to govern, he does, but He has not chosen them as representatives of Himself, history proves otherwise.
All governments which are merely made of people, fall under the same condemnation we all do- "For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God." Yes, even the United States, no less and no more then others.
Once again Jesus shows that those in His government, His kingdom are Kingdom people, that we are to be separate from the world, in all our dealings with others, and how we perceive individuals should be treated. Christ doesn't limit the forgiveness that God give us, nor that which was given to us, when He looked down from the cross and said, "Father forgive them".
Christ tells Peter, "I tell you, not seven times; but seventy times seven."
Why does Jesus give this number? Seven is a complete number under Jewish belief, but even Seven has an ending to it, though what was considered a perfect number. Seventy times Seven is an infinite number, meaning there is no end to it. Thus Jesus says, "Be ye perfect as your heavenly Father is" in His Sermon on the Mount.
Oh! how the body of Christ kicks this one out the door because of our religiosity at times. most often as individuals, we have forgotten who we were and who we are, a forgiven people.
We are a people that deserve no less than the death sentence for our sins.
Eternal spiritual separation from our Father in heaven, if He thought and acted as we do that would be all of our fates. But the Good News is: He doesn't!
Jesus emphasizes this again, the forgiveness for which we have been given, and in Matthew 6:14, where He has once already spoken this explaining once again to us what we like to repeat together as the Lord's prayer with little attention paid to it's words.
14"For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you." Jesus speaks to us, again from the heart of our heavenly Father.
Previous to this, Jesus has again painted not only a very clear picture for the body of Christ as to the will of our Father in heaven, but He give us more insight to the way our Father deals with us and all mankind, whether just or unjust.
Let us read this together- Matthew 5:43-47
43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that?
There it is in a nutshell. "Do not even pagans do that?" He tells them in regards to their treatment of others, do you only treat those that are good to you that treat you good, do you only treat those that you consider just with goodness? If so, then I will say it no clearer then He did, how can you call yourself sons of the living God?
You say, " I am a Christian", yet are your thoughts the same as that of the world when it comes to justice, or the treatment of others who have offended you? Think again. What makes you any different then they?
When 911 happened, I was sure that President Bush who claimed to be a Christian would call for prayer and only prayer. Instead I heard him cry for vengeance!
I heard then tens of thousands of Christians following right behind him and saying the same.
It wasn't until the teachings of a Catholic monk, Augustine that the body of Christ even considered nullifying the Word of God for the traditions of men, with his concept and teaching of "justified war". No disciple of Christ had even considered such until Augustine, they didn't take up sword, except the one time, Peter did, and Our Lord, told him to put it away. Those who live by the sword, die by the sword, so here we are again, with thousands of young men coming home in caskets from abroad.

The body of Christ has given precedent to this Monk, more then the Word of God, or even considering who they are, and just how, they were saved. Too often the false doctrine of men having a "free will" has pervaded the "church", rather then the Word of God, that reveals it is the Father that draws us and that we couldn't save ourselves if we tried!
Jesus makes this clear when Peter tells Him that He is the Son of God, Jesus in turn tells Peter, that is the Father who has revealed that to him! His body, are the people that the Father has revealed himself to.
The world will never fathom who Jesus Christ is, until His people, those claiming that the very resurrected life of Christ through the Holy Spirit is alive in them, begin to think and act, as Jesus did and does. As long as we sound like the world, look like the world and act like the world, they will never see Jesus Christ for whom He is the "Prince of Peace."
There can be no peace in this world even among believers as long as each one has been harmed by another, and they find no forgiveness for one another. There can be no love, in a world that hates and is at constant war with others. We pray, " thy kingdom come, thy will be done", but then in the next breath, we express words of hatred, and discord against anyone, any nation, any group of people that we perceive that have harmed us.
Once again, just like the Pharisees, we have nullified the Word of God, for the traditions of men!
When will the body of Christ ever get it right?
When I ask, when?
I will tell you when, when the body of Christ opens their hearts and their ears to truth, inexplicable truth and the Word of God, the living Word- Jesus Himself. No greater love can one have...
We even have erroneously converted the act of God, as one of punishment, on Christ for us. God is not angry folks, he is not the God of the shadowy Old Testament, but the revealed truth in that one person, that loved the unloved, and brought salvation to all of us, who did not deserve it. If God was a God of the justice that men portray Him to be, He would never have allowed His Son, to go to the Cross, rather each one of us would get what we deserved individually and directed at us as such, not at His only begotten Son.
We each of us right now, would still be " dead in sin and trespasses", and God wouldn't lift a finger to deliver us from the death which we were in.
See, "Christ died for us, while we were yet His enemies!"
How willing are you to love others, forgive others, act differently from this world. Justice, Our Father in heaven's "justice" is compassion and mercy to those who have offended Him how much more if we claim to have God as our Father should we show compassion and mercy to all men.
BTW- there is a payment for not doing so- Jesus warned- we shall be treated as we treat others for sure by our Father, He will allow this, to drive out the hatred in our lives, to bring us to his compassion and mercy, so that in seeing it, we too will become "perfect like our Heavenly Father is."
Read again the end of the story of the "Unforgiving Debtor". It's time for those who desire to call themselves by His name, to quit using His name in vain, and I am not talking about the proverbial curse word either. If we are who we claim to be, then forgiveness is the heart of God, mercy and compassion are the acts of God.
Will you forgive today, someone who has harmed you, done you wrong, or will you have to be tormented until you pay the last dime? I pray that you will forgive, not seven times, but infinitely as our Lord has taught us. God is love, we love because He first loved us. This is what will set us apart from the world, and the world will see we are the light of the world and the salt of this earth. Do we want to appear as a "Christian Nation" to the world, then perhaps we should exemplify rather then nullify, the life of Christ in our dealings with our neighbors, our family, our friends, and most of all with those that we perceive as our enemies! Believe it or not, there are those who do call themselves Christian who have done just that, just look to our Quaker and Anabaptist brethren, who have heeded the Word of God, and not twisted it like most American Protestants have. May the Lord give you the heart of Christ, and may He most of all teach you forgiveness and what true justice is.

Doctor J.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Published My First e-Book - "The Bondage"

I wanted to share with my readers my newest effort and accomplishment. I worked hard at this, as it is my dream to write for a living someday and to do photography along with it.

I have written a Christian fictional story entitled "The Bondage". It took several days just to get it corrected, rewritten, proofread, and then the correct conversion so it would be an eBook, that could be downloaded and read by eBook readers and the devices out there. I specifically made this one compatible for "The Nook", a Barnes and Noble eBook software, since I am making my first attempt at getting it sold retail online through them. I have also tested it on Adobe's Digital Edition, and it seems to read there as well, without any issues. The software to download is freely available from both companies. You can Google them.

The Bondage is a story that is timeless of love, romance, tragedy, healing and restoration.
The two main characters are a young man named James, and his wife Belle.
My story entails the search of two individuals in their search for meaning and purpose for their lives. The direction they turn to at first will lead to tragedy. .

It is the story of the tragedy that takes place often within many marriages when two people go opposite directions making their lives, the center of self.
The tragedy they encounter in their life, will both awaken them to their error and then to whom they must seek for the answer.
Joshua is the brother to James, and as young Christian counselor, he shows them the way to restoration and provides the means of their healing.
This story offers hope and light for all those who have struggled in this life for answers, and often found their lives end up in a shipwreck. It will give you answers to life's most difficult question, Who am I?
My story will give you hope and healing from the very Word of God.
It is a Christian fiction book, but the scenario could be any of our stories, and how we may have or haven't yet, come to know the one true hope that is offered us.
My prayer is that the community of Christians out there will support my writing of this book, as I plan to write more.
Christian authors, artist, painters, poets, actors and more must receive moral and financial support from their community of brothers and sisters in Christ less we too give up these areas as well, to the world, and put out our light to the world, and our being the salt of this earth.
There are few of us as there is, who want to present the Good News to the world through our art work, and they become fewer as too many Christians turn to reading worldly material, watching worldly television shows, and movies.
My hope is that Christians will realize that we too can be creative, and we can be a moving force for the presentation of the Gospel in more than one way, locked behind our church doors.

We must reach out to a world that is lost in sin, and present the Good News, in ways, not necessarily that attracts the world, but in a way, that we can take the beauty of His creation, and allow His Spirit to move us to utilize our gifts to say, hello world, there is another alternative to all that the world offers, that comes to nothing.
There is the one and only one hope for all of mankind's struggle and despair, and His name is Jesus, the most wonderful name in the world.
Please, I invite you to provide me your prayers, your support and yes to even purchase the book.
Right now, for the small price of $5.00, less then what you will spend to go out to eat today, or play golf, or whatever your outside activity involves, you can purchase my book from my book website today. It will be sent to you in the eBook format, and then you will only need to download "Nook" from Barnes and Noble, to read it. If this book does get accepted on B&N, then the price will go up, and will have to be removed for sale from my Book website. My Book website is located at
http://thebondage.webs.com
I am putting it back on sale there today until I hear from B&N.
Please inform your friends, your fellow church members and family. It is written on a level that it can be read from the ages of teens in 7th grade up to adults.
I ask that once you have completed reading it, that you will, go back to my Book website and write a testimonial about your reading of the book. The more I receive there the better. Your comments placed on my site will help me gain a review by a Christian Book Reviewer, which will assist in the sales of the book.
The book isn't very long, it has a total of 14 Chapters, a Preface and a Conclusion.
I want to thank you from my heart for any patronage you provide me.

I am just another struggling Christian writer trying to make an impact on the world for Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior.

Doctor J